freedomfighting

Wow

2006-08-12T19:18:17Z

Summer has been going by really really fast. It seems like a life time since I was a Junior. Now in one week... I will be a Senior. The top of the chain. I thought I knew what I wanted to do afer High school, but now I don't. I am confused. But I love how the time has flown. I have a job now. Woot! Working girl now! It is pretty exciting. I love it... honestly. But at the asme time.. I hate it. It is just confusing. I have friends there. I know people there who want to find another job and it makes me sad to see them leaving. They were the first people that befriended me and taught me the way around the concessions... or in Wes's case... Ushering. lol. It is just fun all together. Soooo back to school. I am excited to see it come back soon. Because then soon.. I can be out "back" into the real world. I am dependant now... and it kind of scares my mom. Heck.. It scares me also. But ohh wellll... I think that is it... for now. lol. See ya.

Wow!!

2006-08-12T19:12:33Z

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Your name
Your partner
You two are	Inseperable
Your meeting was by	Answered prayer
They are your	Protector
You are their	One and only
Your love will	Stay alive

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Your gender?
What makes you sexy?	Your lips
What makes you pretty?	Your smile
What makes you loveable?	How dorky you are
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What makes you irresistable?	Your party style
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your name
he thinks	your his dream girl
he feels	incredibally in love
he loves	your body
he wants	for you to stay with him
hes driven by	your class
he	feels like he cant breathe when he comes near you, he cant live if you arent with him, and he wants to hold you forever more

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All I want to say is, is this true?

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Wow..

2006-06-10T17:30:49Z

I always somewhat thought I was overly happy with the way things were going. I honestly was not. My life has seemed to go down this drain one mistake after another. I am not saying the bapisism was a mistake. I am just saying that I have made mistakes (besides that one) and it is horrible. I realized that without this one boy, I am truly happy. I do not seem like I am sad anymore. Just happy that I got my sense back in me and able to live now without him. I have not talked to him in about a week. And the whole time I have been living life and having fun. I was not thinking about him. I was too busy having fun and just "letting go" as some people like to call it. I am happier now and I am better for it. =D

yeah

2006-03-12T22:01:40Z

So basically nothing is going on and I am just being bored out of my mind. It is funny how everything can go down into the drain on friendships. Oh well. I got my liscense and now just basically drive myself around now.

Wow

2005-11-24T18:46:48Z

Wow, it has been awhile since I have done one of these. Since September 21st. Well, a lot has changed since than, believe it or not. I got my hair cut so it looks mighty cute according to everyone. I have no clue whats going on between me and this one friend, but I am not stressing out over it. Even though we have been friends for almost three years, I don't really care what happens now. I just miss my AAR CD a lot. Like, I really wish I was kidding, but I am not. Hmm... Lets see here. I have no other thing to say besides I am still fighting with my mom's mom. It is pretty funny if you think about it. haha. Anyways, I believe that is it.

OH YEAH! I can't stick out my tongue because the side of my face still hurts. And than, yesterday I yelled at some stupid frosh. *coughrachelscoughsistercough*

Woot

2005-09-21T23:46:08Z

So I guess Nothing has been going right. Everything is going wrong. I found one part of my family hates me because I'm as rude as ever by not saying Hi to my STEP grandpa. Which is a guy I totally despise. I don't even think I can get more higher than that. It's really messed up so I decided, I am not going to go to anything hoilday style or anything at all. All I am going to do, is write a letter about how I was unjustly rude and that I am sorry. Nothing else than that. I don't care if it sounds rude. Okay, Maybe I do care, but it is pretty messed up I get bitched at because I do not say hi to someone and I don't hear anything they say because they mumble. I am sorry, but I was TIRED and JUST woke up when they came over. So whatever. I give up. And I am reopening my pathways of communication with my brother.

Funny

2005-09-20T01:33:42Z

So today I called myself Blonde. And guess what I get? No, you aren't blonde. You have black hair.

freedomfighting @ 2005-09-18T20:14:00

2005-09-19T03:14:37Z

Life is great. Well, right now it is. School is fun and I've been having the time of my life.

freedomfighting @ 2005-09-06T18:29:00

2005-09-07T01:29:40Z

Just one thing to say...

My life isn't hell anymore =D

YEAH!

2005-08-24T03:04:19Z

First day of school... Guess what I did?

Convo with myself...

My Mind: So Becky!!! What did you do on your first day of school?
Me: No, you should guess it!?
My Mind: Just tell me.
Me: Why should I?
My Mind: Just tell me, okay?
Me: OKAY! I punched a brick wall! And kicked it!
My Mind: You dummy, You could've hurt yourself.
Me: Don't worry. I bruised my Knuckle.

There you guys. Now you can't yell at me. *sticks out tongue* Something else happened but I'm not going into that! School is awesome now.

DUDE

2005-08-11T03:58:41Z

Today Rachel and I acted like such little kids that I loved it. How many times do you fight like when your a little kid? Rachel and I did that. It was fun. We "sumo-wrestled" but I ended up laughing really hard. We chased each other around. The only thing that I really really really hate. Are Boobs. They get in the way cuz of it.

Weird. I know.

TONIGHT!

2005-08-08T07:49:33Z

Tonight was pretty awesome. I went to the drive in with my cousin and uncle and the lightening was going on during the movie. I was very interested in how it looked! I wish I had an actual camera to show you guys it. It was so cool. I loved it. And now I am home. WIDE AWAKE!!!! Lol.

quiz from sephy bond

2005-08-07T04:53:35Z

You scored as Albus Dumbledore. Strong and powerful you admirably defend your world and your charges against those who would seek to harm them. However sometimes you can fail to do what you must because you care too much to cause suffering.

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Draco Malfoy

80%

Hermione Granger

80%

Severus Snape

80%

Albus Dumbledore

80%

Ron Weasley

75%

Harry Potter

70%

Remus Lupin

70%

Sirius Black

70%

Ginny Weasley

60%

Lord Voldemort

35%

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Why the hell me?!

2005-08-03T20:00:16Z

So, back to that 'defragging' thing. I don't know what to do. Everytime my cell vibrates or goes off... I'm hoping it's "him" calling me and telling me everything I want to hear from him. Honestly you guys, I don't know what to do. I find myself wishing he was what he once was. Myself waking up wondering what he is doing. Why the hell am I putting myself through that pain? Again. I just... ah! I just hate it. I just want to know that everything I have through with him can just be forgotten so I can move on and be happy again. Which, lately I have been. Dancing to my own rythm. Humming to myself. Getting my Mega Monsters! But Him... Why oh why him? I should be able to move on. Be able to breathe without him in my mind. Just everything. I effing hate this. I am seriously changing quick and it's scaring me. One minute I'm all chipper, the next I am crying. And than after that I am angry for what he did to me. The saddness still comes to me everytime I think of him, so why do I get the pain. Shouldn't he get the pain? Not me! Can't I be able to think clearly without him being poison to my mind? I was doing so good for a while. Without him disturbing my mind or anything else for that matter. Just everything about him makes me crazy. The way he cheated on me. The way he lied to me. I really thought he meant everything he said to me. What a fool I was? Actually thinking he was interested in someone as fat and ugly as me. I'm just as a smartass bitch as I'll ever be. And yet, I always try to assume the worse with him because it always happens when I assume the best with him. So when can I get my own piece of my mind back? When can I smile and not think of him? When can I not have him in my mind? He is the poison I never wanted to get into. He is the poison I never wanted to enter my mind. The poison I would have done better without him in it. He haunts my dreams when I am the most vunerable. He wrecks my life. He is the one that makes me scream in my nightmares. He one that I never thought possible would get past my badass shield and into my heart.

Just to let everyone know who "he" is... I HATE YOU NATHAN O'BAR! YOU WRECKED MY FUCKING LIFE!

I think I let that out pretty well. At least he won't read this.

I know you
so better than the city in the rear view
I drive to
eliminate the ball that I'm chained to

Take me break me
every mile further there's a part of me that slips away
One day you’ll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn’t make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I’m gonna have to drive all night

Pulse stays strong
I’m pushing on the pedal til I break dawn
So I’m gone, go find another shoulder you can cry on

Take me break me
every mile further there’s a part of me that slips away
One day you’ll see
Even if you got down on your knees you couldn’t make me stay

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

All of the things that you knew that I’d try
All of the things that I held inside
All I gotta do is drive

Drive all night
Never gonna get me
Night by night
To get away from it all
Fight fight fight
All you wanna do is hurt me
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night
You wrecked my life
So I'm gonna have to drive all night

One weird dream

2005-08-03T05:58:04Z

Ridofyounow: okay so those dreams. i am moving up north in tracy where nate lives and i just somehow move across the street from him. but we go up there to look at the house. so i just look around for 5 mins and than i go outside to play my guitar cuz im in this band and its famous. and like the guy that lives in the house comes out and listens to me and goes, wow, your good. and i tell him about the band that i have. and he was like wow, my friends exgirlfriend is in a famous band and he misses her. and I know that its me hes talking about. so i ask, is your friend nathan o'bar?
Ridofyounow: and he goes wow, how would you... shit! its really you!? and i go. unfortunately yes. so nate calls his friend on the phone and ask who i was. and the guy starts stuttering and i laugh and said give me the phone. so he handed it over. and i went, hello. may i ask who this is? and nate was like becky!? and i was like. no, its bob. he laughs and said ill be right there. and i hang up and go ohh bloody hell
sango54321: man, if i was there i'd be all like "run becky run! i'll hold em off!" lol
Ridofyounow: and than he comes and i just start playing my guitar again while he talks to his friend and my phone goes off. and i was like okay. WAIT! you guys are here? I thought... shit! okay. and i hang up and run inside to tell my mom i had band practice and asked john(thats the guys name) mom if it was okay with her if john came. and she said yeah. so nate and him come along. (to my unfortunate liking)
Ridofyounow: lol. yeah but theres more
Ridofyounow: so i am in the recording studio with my band and than my phone goes off again and i was like oh bloody hell. people need to stop calling. so i pick it up and its justin from j-walk asking for rachel and i laugh and said justin! its becky. let me get her. so he was like.. what?! and so i explained it to him. and than i told the band to take a break and handed rachel the phone and she went into the other room with the band. while i was in the recording part. and put on the intercom so i can hear
Ridofyounow: and nate is going on about how he misses me and all that stuff. and i just start up in a song and looks around and sees me and than i woke up half way through the song
Ridofyounow: and this is part of the song.
Ridofyounow: You say you want me back
That you never meant to do what you did
But now its my turn to say

Even though I have
Feelings for you
Doesn't mean I want you back
You broke my heart more than once
I'm not ready to have you
In my life again

Ridofyounow is me and my dream is it. the other one is jess and just adding things in. haha

bolah

2005-08-03T03:17:46Z

You say you want me back
That you never meant to do what you did
But now its my turn to say

Even though I have
Feelings for you
Doesn't mean I want you back
You broke my heart more than once
I'm not ready to have you
In my life again

(song in process. I need more mind blowing attention to it.)

Sorry

2005-08-02T03:57:04Z

Hey guys. Sorry about that last update. My brother just pissed me off and I wanted to prove something to him but I decided just to go irrate him into hell. And it worked. I blasted my computer with Harry Potter Two than I heard him go downstairs and than I waited and than went downstairs and than blast the TV so it was loud. He got mad! I was like go me! But than I got pissed again for some reason. That's it. Yeah, don't mess with me when I'm mad by the way.

Wonder

2005-08-01T21:36:13Z

I always wonder why I always tried to kill myself in 8th and 9th and 10th grade. Well, I stopped for a bit and than now I am having those thoughts again. I am only always online cuz it's the only way to talk to some people. Cuz they don't like the phone. But now I know why. My brother just always calls me a bitch and its pretty much why I tried. I know rarely anyone cares so I just try to kill myself. I guess it's pretty stupid but oh well. I don't care. Well, I am probably not going to update in a while. I'll most likely be up in my room all the time now. I don't know doing what but I don't care. Like anyone cares so bye.

freedomfighting @ 2005-08-01T13:55:00

2005-08-01T20:55:39Z

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Defragging

2005-07-31T17:52:16Z

I am basically defragging my brain. That boy needs to get out of my head. So I am basically working on it. I think a new image is in store for some people that know me well. *winks* I don't know. But I am really looking forward to all this and all this fun stuff. That's all I have to say for now..

Comment if you would like to

Dude

2005-07-31T11:24:41Z

I can't believe I have been such an idiot lately. I always let my feelings get in the way of me being happy. One thing goes wrong, I blow up. I wonder why that is. Like today, for instance, I was driving and I hit the curb. I totally freaked out. But anyways, another thing today, my dad was going on about how I like something stupid. Which I don't even like whatever it was. And I was just blew up at him about how he didn't understand me and I don't like that crap. And than when I went upstairs. I trashed my room and the bathroom upstairs. But cleaned it up. It wasn't badly trashed. Just things thrown everywhere. Than, my oh so new problem. It has to do with a stupid boy. I thought I was really over him, ya know? Well, I find out he's with someone else and I feel like crap. Maybe I just feel sorry for the girl. Since to the fact that the boy just LOVES to cheat. Well, he did for me. Oh well, Time to move on, right? Lately though, I have been having things thought over. One is, my attitude. It has changed. I'm either happy or pissed off. It's one or the other. I have Stab My Back by AAR stuck in my head constantly since I heard that song. It seems to fit me well though. Each day, a new lives are coming into the world.

Also each day, it's time for people to realize it's time to move on wheather you like it or not.

WOOOTT!

2005-07-29T07:11:03Z

COMPUTER JUST GOT IN TODAY!!!!!! I am so excited! I get the computer back and.... AIM! lol. A lot has seem to have gone on but honestly, I'm not in the mood to get all into it! *wink* IM me or call me if you need me at all!

Busy

2005-07-25T06:58:31Z

I have just been busy with everything. I guess when someone retires from the company that they have, they want to just hand it over to me. (weird) and I might be moving but I love the place. Lol. So whatever. comment if you like..

PS, my computer should be in by sometime this week.

Back from the dead

2005-07-15T21:50:23Z

Hey everyone. Just letting everyone know that my computer died and well, I haven't gotten it back yet. I am just on the computer at my work because I feel like taking a break from what I was doing. I have been busy. I got out of summer school and I started back up for work on Wednesday. I have been doing everyday since than. I got my first paycheck today!!! I was excited! I have it! lol. Anyways, all at work I have been doing is calling LOADS of people that they have at customers and fixing their program and updating it. It's so exciting and confusing. Right now, I have been folding invoices and stuffing them into the envelopes. Well, account payments. But whatever. I work at Coffee Ambassador. It's exciting here. Well, tomorrow, I have to take my permit test. I haven't been stressing about it. So I should be okay and actually pass it. Than I am going to be getting a new desk after the test and we are done with DMV. So that's cool. I should be opening up a bank account tomorrow also!!!!! So anyways, I have to work all day next week for 8 hours so the company's database is great and everything and updated. I got a new DVD player in my computer so I can watch DVD's upstairs. I have been doing that and it's really exciting. I lay on my bed watching them! That's all I have to say for right now. Besides, Harry Potter is coming out tomorrow! HAHA! Anyways, lol. I should have a computer soon so I can talk to everyone on AIM. I miss everyone dearly. Anyone can call me and see how I am! Be back later or update later. lol. Bye.

DUDE!

2005-06-28T03:50:10Z

Okay, so I failed the permit test. Oh course like me being me, I stressed over it. There are some other things also that totally flipped me out also but only Rachel really understands that one. I didn't go to school today! After taking the test, I got to come home and sulk all day! But that's about it. My day was boring.